my funny world

It's been a while since my last post .. I'm currently writing this post via my ipad cause if i use my computer, my sister and brother may get the virus too

Ngehhh

I've been having lots of tough challenges this week . I got chicken pox . And guess what? Tommorow is my graduation .. This sucks man :( i was crying from the morning , even i'm still crying now too. I've always tried to be strong but this time, maaan this is just too saad :( at first i decided to make a record to make no cries in this year .. But in this week, i've cried three times . I know its really really lame, but i just can't stand this sadness

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I think this is going to be a veryy long post
Pardon me before for getting too emotional .. Haha

Why should i get chicken pox at this kind of time? WHYYYYYYYYY!? Graduation is going to be my moment in life, which occurs once only. Well, there will be more graduation ahead but STILL. This graduation is different, the school, the atmosphere , teachers (ha, not all though) , and FRIENDS :'( omggg i miss them very veryyy muchh :"(. Actually this week is supposed to be my last high school week but due to this lame-asshole chicken pox , ... Arghhh.

I've been only in my room too. I can't go out (except to the toilet) and could you imagine, me staying in this freaking room ALONE for 5 days?? I feel so desperately isolated. I can't meet with people except my mom , my 2 mbas and granny . I have not meet my brother and sister for 5 days :'( they're sometimes annoying but i miss them now .

Actually in the beginning, my mom told me that there may be still a chance of me attending the graduation . Hearing that, i was highly motivated to get cured . I've done EVERYTHING . I drink all the freaking medicines , the super disgusting alang alang water, a galon of guava papaya juice everyday (well this one is pretty good actually), even the thickest coconut water (not the usual sweet one) . I have avoid eating unhealthy foods, i eat porridge everyday :"( . For the snacks, i can only eat small cakes and jelly.:"(

Then this morning, i think i've mentioned befor about myself crying. Ms Natasha called me today and told me that i should not come to the graduation. If you were me, how will you feel? Is it normal to cry about it? Even my mom cried too while she looked at me crying hopelessly. Never in my life i've cried like this before. Hearing what ms natasha's words made me even sicker, hopeless, dreamless .. She said i can't do anything about it . Sigh

What else can i do now? I can't do anything . I can't meet people too . Can you imagine how it feels ? :"(

P.s. Thank you for all your 'gws' thing. I don't know why i feel somehow happy when people say that. It feels like as if they care :') i don't know whether they care about me or not but thank you again for those who have said gws to me :')

P.p.s. Some of my friends are way tooooooooo nice to me. They support me , the made me laugh.

P.p.p.s. Big thanks to my mom who has taken care of me.

:')

I know maybe some of you won't read compeletely this crappy post. Haha . Thats okay though