It's been a while since my last post .. I'm currently writing this post via my ipad cause if i use my computer, my sister and brother may get the virus too

Ngehhh

I've been having lots of tough challenges this week . I got chicken pox . And guess what? Tommorow is my graduation .. This sucks man :( i was crying from the morning , even i'm still crying now too. I've always tried to be strong but this time, maaan this is just too saad :( at first i decided to make a record to make no cries in this year .. But in this week, i've cried three times . I know its really really lame, but i just can't stand this sadness

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I think this is going to be a veryy long post
Pardon me before for getting too emotional .. Haha

Why should i get chicken pox at this kind of time? WHYYYYYYYYY!? Graduation is going to be my moment in life, which occurs once only. Well, there will be more graduation ahead but STILL. This graduation is different, the school, the atmosphere , teachers (ha, not all though) , and FRIENDS :'( omggg i miss them very veryyy muchh :"(. Actually this week is supposed to be my last high school week but due to this lame-asshole chicken pox , ... Arghhh.

I've been only in my room too. I can't go out (except to the toilet) and could you imagine, me staying in this freaking room ALONE for 5 days?? I feel so desperately isolated. I can't meet with people except my mom , my 2 mbas and granny . I have not meet my brother and sister for 5 days :'( they're sometimes annoying but i miss them now .

Actually in the beginning, my mom told me that there may be still a chance of me attending the graduation . Hearing that, i was highly motivated to get cured . I've done EVERYTHING . I drink all the freaking medicines , the super disgusting alang alang water, a galon of guava papaya juice everyday (well this one is pretty good actually), even the thickest coconut water (not the usual sweet one) . I have avoid eating unhealthy foods, i eat porridge everyday :"( . For the snacks, i can only eat small cakes and jelly.:"(

Then this morning, i think i've mentioned befor about myself crying. Ms Natasha called me today and told me that i should not come to the graduation. If you were me, how will you feel? Is it normal to cry about it? Even my mom cried too while she looked at me crying hopelessly. Never in my life i've cried like this before. Hearing what ms natasha's words made me even sicker, hopeless, dreamless .. She said i can't do anything about it . Sigh

What else can i do now? I can't do anything . I can't meet people too . Can you imagine how it feels ? :"(

P.s. Thank you for all your 'gws' thing. I don't know why i feel somehow happy when people say that. It feels like as if they care :') i don't know whether they care about me or not but thank you again for those who have said gws to me :')

P.p.s. Some of my friends are way tooooooooo nice to me. They support me , the made me laugh.

P.p.p.s. Big thanks to my mom who has taken care of me.

:')

I know maybe some of you won't read compeletely this crappy post. Haha . Thats okay though

fight ! :D

today was such a great day people :)
hell yeah i love today so much
hehe
today was the school fieldtrip tp SnowBay at Taman Mini
it was not really big but i had a great time there
the games were just 4 ..
the best game was Hurricane !
it was soooo much fun :)
i'm soooo happy ~
lalala .
and it seems that there are lotsa love stories to day . hihihihi ^^
did not took pictures cuz i did not bring my camera or even my phone
haha

the weather there was hawwtt
but in the end .. it was raining and it really completes my day :)

but why should the filedtrip be today ?
i mean duu uh its not friday ..
though today feels like friday but tomorrow's school again mans
>.<

well , this post is currently my last post before the exams
exams start next week n i gitta work hard for it!
gotta catch up my marks (if i could)
thank God that the exam is 70% of everything n the monthly tests are just 15 % and the rest is from the last year's exam .. the upcoming exam may change everything ! wooot - woot
but do you all think i can catch up my marks ?
i mean , i'm not in a healthy condition , you knoww T__T
i don;t know why i always get sick at times before exams
huhuhu
most people said that i'm just stressed
moreover , today i played at Snowbay n it worsened my fluuu !!
huhuhuhu
my throat hurts too :(
but muy teacher said that i always have to be strong
yess! i have to be :D
even on my way home from school (from Snowbay), my mom immediately called my driver's phone to tell me to eat medicine
i was like what ? 0.o
then on my first step at home , my mom called again !
she told me to eat medicine (again) n then go to sleep
unfortunately .. i was unable to sleep ..
hahahaha
then i played my guitar dunno why ..
(btw btw i started playing guitar again :D . i miss all my music stuffs . i currently studying jazz music, its kinda hard! all crazyyy chords @__@ n i don't have anybody to teach me , so i have to learn all by myself .. pfffffffffffft)

anw
wish me luck people !
>.<

btw this is the hurricane thgy picta
p.s.
look ay dennise !
LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

well , i gotta goooooooo
byee <33


p.s.
wish me luck again :D

p.p.s
trust me , don't trust somebody that other ppl dun trust !
you just trust that human cuz you r close to that human

Cause what’s true, about you! Who are you when I’m gone?

loha lohaaaa ppl :D

today's a holiday mans !

so bored today

i'm so panic today =="

my bro is sick . well his fever at first was only 38.6 , but 10 mins later it turns to 39.2

omg omg omg

i was really panic T__T

he keeps on crying also .. mom was also panic too . she called home for so many times from singapore

it was really sad when wins told mom "mama come back home pleaaaaseeee :("

he was crying at that time (when mom called)

maybe some of you think these things r just nothing

thanks to sheila n my auntie n uncle for today :')

one of my friend made me more stress than ever

so annoying . HUFFT

btw i found this song on the net

<just click to download it ;) >

Dirty Picture - Ke$ha ft. Taio Cruz

i duno why i love that song ..

hehehe

today's looklet

p.s. those of you who has looklet , visit my page !

the boo ♥

gottagoo

not in a mood to blog

2moro's school anw =_________=

bye